"When you called me to be a Mama, You didn't ask for perfection. But that with every breath, I'd point them to You."

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

VBS and Brandon

This week feels a little different at our house. With Vacation Bible School every night, Jaden leaves us right after supper and doesn't return to us until bedtime. For the first time in Brandon's two years of life, he gets Mommy and Daddy all to himself... and Mommy and Daddy are remembering what it was like when Jaden was little and it was two parents for just one child.

Funny how I have one less child this week but feel much more tired. It's kind of been a whirlwind.

6:30 a.m. Wake up. Shower. Get everyone dressed.
7:30 a.m. Pile into the car for daycare.
8:00 a.m. Coffee's on, toast is made, computer is opened. Work all day. From home. (Except for tomorrow. Tomorrow is an office day, a two long conference calls day, a press conference day, a video shoot for our website day).
5:00 p.m. Daycare pickup.
5:00-6:00 p.m. Race to get Daddy home, supper made, kids completely fed, a potty break for Jaden, pile back into the car.
6:15 p.m. Drop Jaden off at VBS.
6:15 p.m. - 7:30 p.m. Soak up all that is Brandon; take him for an adventure.
7:30 p.m.  Plop Brandon in the tub and get jammies on.
8:00 p.m.  Pile back into the car. Again. (It wouldn't really take all of us going back and forth in the car... but Brandon loves to be there to drop Jaden off and pick him up).
8:15 p.m. Pick Jaden up from VBS.
8:30 p.m. A quick shower for Jaden, brush teeth, quick snacks.
8:45 p.m. Bedtime.
8:45 p.m. Respond to any e-mails that have come in since 5:00 that I feel require my attention.

...and I'm spent. It's a lot of hustle and bustle and a lot of hurrying!

It feels really crazy that I now have a child who is old enough to be at a "summer camp." Our family feels incomplete when he is not with us. I  know it is something that Brandon senses, as Karen told me at daycare tonight that Brandon has not left Jaden's side the last couple of days. But I am so grateful that Jaden is loving his time at VBS and learning a lot of valuable lessons that though he can't appreciate them now, are building a foundation for him that will always be there as he grows. A foundation that laid right... will not crumble. Piece by piece. Day by day. Year by year. Prayer by prayer.

And I'm very grateful for this one-on-one time with my youngest, who unfortunately... doesn't ever get much one-on-one time.

We've been trying to make these nights extra special for Brandon. Last night - a trip to a new park for him - Orchard Hill Elementary park. The park that I used to have recess on has changed quite a bit since the my days there, but I could still point out the exact spots where I used to play basketball with the boys and climb on the monkey bars with the girls. And last night I watched Brandon sit in the same swings I used to swing in. Our two year old no longer needs a "baby" swing - he sat on the big swings, held on to the chains and let us push him like a big boy. He was so happy on that swing, that we just stood there pushing him for almost 20 minutes. Then he went from one climbing activity to another. That child has no fear and can already climb a playground ladder better than his older brother climbs the ladder to his bunk bed.

When it was time to pick Jaden up last night, we all got a special treat. The theme at VBS this year is "Sky." All things are possible with God.

When we arrived at the church, a helicopter was sitting outside in the church yard. Before the night came to a close, they ushered everyone outside to watch a pilot fly this helicopter away... and then come back and land just a few yards away from us. It just so happens that Brandon has had a fascination with helicopters lately, and he was SO excited to see one that up close. Jumping up and down and squeeling. And Jaden told me when he got home that he wants to be a pilot one day. This is the first time Jaden has expressed an interest in what he wants to be when he grows up. (Other than a football and basketball player). It was almost a magical moment to stand outside among so many volunteers, church leaders, young kids and church friends of ours... while the sun set, the night breeze set in and the kids' eyes glowed. We are very grateful for that place. Night one of VBS = success.

Tonight... we took Brandon to the mall. He loves to throw pennies into the big fountain, and in his eyes, the mall is a vast kingdom that he always loves to explore. Plus... we stopped for a little treat in the food court. A miniature cookie and a "child's scoop" of oreo ice cream.

But as both of these nights have come to a close, and an hour and a half or so has passed since we've dropped Jaden off, Brandon has gotten clingy. Wanting to be held, hugging us all the time and very eager to go pick up his brother.

"Go bye-bye. Go get Nanen. (Jaden)."

8:15 p.m. Two little boys holding hands in the church parking lot...

Jaden: "Did you miss me, Brandon?"
Brandon: "Yeah!"