"When you called me to be a Mama, You didn't ask for perfection. But that with every breath, I'd point them to You."

Thursday, August 25, 2016

A Back to School Devotion

"Trust Me to take care of your loved ones. They are safe with me. My Presence never leaves them - just as I never leave you."
- August 23rd, "Jesus Calling - 365 Devotions for Kids" - by Sarah Young
 
I keep this devotional book in our van in the front, middle console. There's a little storage slot right under the radio controls where this book fits perfectly - like a glove. Every morning when the kids and I pile into the van, before we even leave the garage with them securely belted into their seats behind me, we open up to the correct date and page, and I read the day's devotion to them. I love that it's written in text that they can understand - I love that it relates the day's teaching and message and Bible verse to events going on in a six and eight year olds world. I love that it usually prompts really good questions and discussions as we pull out of the driveway and head to our destination for the morning. I love that the kids start their days - and we as a family start our days - with the knowledge and assurance if His ever-present love.
 
This passage above was part of our reading the morning of Backpack Night at school. The day when we would meet new teachers and see new classrooms, when we would drop off our year's worth of school supplies in our desks and lockers and discover which new and old friends would make up our classrooms for the next nine months. It was fitting this day - more so for me than for them - as we start another new journey - another year of growth and increased independence and learning and trying more new things and taking more steps towards that looming future.


 
 I've found myself caught up lately in anxiety and worry. I look back at the baby years and think about those nights I'd lie awake wondering if I was giving them too many ounces in their bottles or not enough - if I should take them to the doctor for that 101 degree fever or wait it out - if they were getting enough one-on-one attention at daycare or if I was failing them by being a working mom. So many worries that seem so small now. Back then, where we are now seemed so far away, and really - I had no idea what I was headed for. The worries now are so much bigger and will probably only continue to grow as they do. Thank goodness I have a husband who is able to calm me down when I get ahead of myself, who thinks nothing about tomorrow and focuses on today. We really do balance each other out that way. And thank goodness for a God that has been using scripture and devotionals lately to remind me that He will take care of tomorrow, and that He will take care of them.
 
Another first day of school. Another step further out the door. But so much to celebrate because of who they are and whose they are.

 
I keep my own devotional by the bed, and I read it every night before turning out the light. It follows the same message on the same date as the kids' version we read in the morning, but I love bookending my days with His words. I start my day and I end my day with these reminders. And it really is helping this mama's anxious heart.
 
"Entrust your loved ones to me; release them into My protective care. They are much safer with Me than in your clinging hands."
-August 23rd, "Jesus Calling - Enjoying Peace in His Presence" - by Sarah Young