"When you called me to be a Mama, You didn't ask for perfection. But that with every breath, I'd point them to You."

Tuesday, January 29, 2019

3/52

"a portrait of each of my children, once each week, in 2019"


Jaden: Your last few days as a 10 year old were spent pretty much just like this. You've had a couple of weekends off of basketball now due to a cancelled tournament and some bad weather, and we're all going a little stir crazy wanting to get you back on the court so you can release some energy! February is going to be a big basketball month... it's hard to believe your third Outlaw season is coming down the home stretch already!


Brandon: We finally got a legit snow storm last week, and you were quick to offer to help first thing in the morning, heading outside to shovel before you even brushed your teeth! I can always count on you, bud.


Kaitlyn: Hey little princess. You're either going through a physical or a mental growth spurt - or both - because we're experiencing some six-month sleep regression. Our star sleeper has gone from sleeping 11 hours straight to waking up for a bottle feeding the last few nights and then wanting to play for an or two in your crib! I try to stay away and just listen to you on the monitor but listening to you play doesn't allow me much sleep. ;) You battled an awful cold last week, which allowed us an extra day home to snuggle and recover, and seeing you look so miserable broke my heart to pieces. I was so relieved that the worst of it was so short lived, and your sparkling blue eyes were back to normal quickly.

Monday, January 28, 2019

Happy 11th Birthday, Jaden



Today, you are 11. You started this whole thing, bud. My dream of being a mom came true the minute we found out there was you. And once we got through the first six colicky weeks of your life, you were the easiest baby. And then you were the easiest toddler and preschooler and then you grew into becoming a pretty easy elementary-aged boy. We've never once had a behavioral issue with you at daycare, school, sports. In fact, the complete opposite. Every single year since you started school, we've been told how great of a role model and leader you are. Yours is a quiet leadership. You lead by example and restraint and often very little words. This year, we've seen that more than ever before.


Because this past year, more than ever, we've seen the change in you. The change that shows us you're becoming a young man. It's hard on my heart sometimes because these 11 years went REALLY fast. It's cliche to say it, but when I think about having you under our roof for only seven more years I have to catch my breath because that doesn't seem possible. You're growing up in so many ways. You're still such a good kid, but you're craving independence. You push our buttons more, as you try to stretch your boundaries. You no longer allow me to take your picture whenever I want to. When we have large family gatherings, you - the social butterfly that you've always been amongst our family - spend more time downstairs talking to your friends on your gaming headset than you do chatting it up with your nanas and papas. Your mom is having to learn to let go a little bit, and it's hard but I also know it's necessary. 



5th grade has been big for you. We've seen you make big decisions and respond to situations this school year in ways that make us so proud of you. You're an amazing big brother to Kaitlyn. In fact, she brings out the softest side of you right now. You want to be cool and tough, and you have come to really shy away from any kind of attention. In fact, just last night your entire extended family sang Happy Birthday to you, and you were so embarrassed by it. I see so much of your daddy in you. You really are his mini-me.

Your poise this past football season, quarterbacking your first tackle team, was something to admire. You never got too high or too low - admitted your mistakes when you screwed up - but never called out a teammate when they were the ones to make you look bad. You hit a mental slump for a bit during this basketball season, but are crawling your way out of it and looking forward to even bigger things ahead on the court very soon. School is not your cup of tea - you just don't enjoy it - and yet you're doing so very well in it.


And though you are growing at rapid speed, you are still very much the Jaden that we've always known you to be. You've never seen a plate of food you didn't like, you still love to be surrounded by people, video games are your favorite past time, your sense of humor and love of laughter is one of my favorite things about you, and though you try to hide it because you don't want to appear less than tough, your heart is a soft one.

We love you, bud. And I will continue to be your biggest cheerleader - even though it's starting to embarrass you, and I have to learn to be a little quieter. :)


Wednesday, January 23, 2019

Christmas Day 2018



We didn't leave our house on Christmas day, and it was wonderful. Having spent many years packing up our vehicle and trucking our kids to everyone else's homes, we've been grateful the last two years to be able to host everything in our own living room. We've developed a nice routine to our day. A special but easy breakfast - this year it included donuts and and rolls, opening Santa's presents only with just the five of us, and then spending a couple of hours playing with our first gifts while waiting for my mom and dad to arrive. They bring more food and a whole u-haul full of gifts, the kids get to open all of their presents from us, and then we take turns opening each gift from Nana and Papa one by one by one. Then the rest of the day is spent playing and eating. Cody smoked some meat for our Christmas night dinner, and I don't think any of the three kids changed out of their pajamas.

This Christmas, Brandon and Kaitlyn were the first to awake. I went out to the living room with them while we let Daddy and Jaden sleep in a bit. Brandon put some finishing touches on a present he wrapped for Papa Bob, and even Kaitlyn seemed to know there was something special about to start. We eventually got impatient and forced Jaden and Daddy to wake up so we could start opening some gifts! ;)

I was so proud of the boys this year, as they were less excited about presents, and more eager for the long break from school and time spent with family. But finding the perfect gifts for them brings me a lot of joy, and I love spoiling them a bit on Christmas day. And I don't think anyone was disappointed. ;) Favorites included large Pottery Barn murals for both of the boys' rooms from Nana and Papa, a new Nintendo Switch and games to go with it, and some fun girly toys for Kaitlyn. Of course she's now my favorite person to shop for, and I had so much fun picking out her Minnie Mouse jumperoo, her first set of bath toys, a piggy bank perfect for her bedroom, and her very first baby doll. I've waited my whole life to buy my own daughter her first baby doll.

Santa also did good! ;) Some baby-safe nail polish for Kaitlyn's stocking, an architecture design kit for Brandon, and a gaming headset for Jaden... to name a few things.

Our easy day... in pictures.





















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